How many people out there have ever had a stand-off in their front yard, with police...guns drawn, bullhorns out in the driveway...when they weren't home.
I have. I tried to come home and got waved away by the police who were trying to 'save' me because it was 'Too dangerous'
How many people out there were also worked law enforcement, long enough to know you were capable of doing it right. At least corrections, some people count it some people don't.
I have. Six years made it to day shift, had a unit commendation, was even a trainer for a few weeks(a bit of horseplay nonsense that I both take responsibility for and don't regret, it was funny, I was dumb, and I would probably do it again, and deserved to give up training status.), yet I was signed off in areas that a lot of my more senior co workers weren't, not elite, but better than average and good at it.
I've been a standout personality in every environment I've ever been in. I believe I have a unique insight and different way of seeing things. Of course I could also be completely bat shit crazy. I won't rule that out. It doesn't feel like it though. It feels like I'm on to something. Whether I'm crazy or not figuring out whatever this is is going to either make or break me. Still I feel like there is something in this sharing, this growing I enjoy writing, I think that the stories and pictures in my mind will be well met and enjoyed. So I must believe that if there is an answer there must be something in these words, because they seem to matter.
I make people laugh. Certain people more than others, but everyone once in a while. I'm not always good at it, and sometimes it just isn't funny, but I'm good with the A for effort, and even when I don't get a laugh I almost always get a smile for the effort. It is the thought that counts and I feel like my presence brightens people around me...usually. When I'm down and it shows, people around me are often concerned or emotionally moved.
I also went to school for psychology even though I didn't finish I continue to be interested in, and read up on psychology and have a broader base of knowledge than the average person. Which is making me drop into this clinical voice that doesn't seem to flow as well as the feel I was going for with this piece...
So I will leave this as a free flow honest thought rant.... no edit, I wrote it once beginning to end and hit send
Nothing Special
Hello all!
This part of the Whateverlution...is all about me. Call it an ongoing ever changing 'about the author' Dane Cook once said...A suicide note written by someone who is not suicidal is called an autobiography.
So what gives me the ability to speak out about the world? Why should anyone listen when I tell them about fitness, gaming, intellectual pursuits, the sociological ramifications of current world politics, and gummy worms?
Well that's something you're going to have to learn as you go. However if you want credentials, allow me to fill in a bit of my resume.
At 34 I have collected paychecks from over 30 different employers. I have built million dollar homes, I have driven a front end loader through mountains of trash, I've been to basic training and enjoyed some peace time national guard time, I've worked for restaurants, retail chains, and convenient stores and been a substitute teacher. However I have also spent over five years as a guard at a county jail AND 30 days as an inmate at a different county jail. (For CIVIL CONTEMPT-I couldn't afford to pay ALIMONY, and was subsequently put in jail, which caused me to lose my job with the Sheriff's Department)
My education involves an Associates degree, and 90 credits towards a BS in Mental Health and Human services, as well as a healthy interest in reference literature. School and I have never gotten along, I find it too rigid and constraining, I can learn more on my own.
The only things I know for sure...I've been pretty good at just about every job I've ever had. The closest to a job I actually liked was as a guard. I'm a people watcher and psychological dynamics fascinate me, plus I'm an adrenaline junkie and at the time thrived amidst the crazy fights, hangings, cut-ups etc etc. That being said I now have to pursue a different career, and this blog circle is part of it. It's a social and personal experiment. I know that everywhere I've gone, people tend to remember me. However despite being a quick learner, and intelligent and well-spoken, something seems to be holding me back. So I am now hoping to work from that into something here, maybe a job, maybe a career, maybe pocket money, time will tell.
This part of the Whateverlution...is all about me. Call it an ongoing ever changing 'about the author' Dane Cook once said...A suicide note written by someone who is not suicidal is called an autobiography.
So what gives me the ability to speak out about the world? Why should anyone listen when I tell them about fitness, gaming, intellectual pursuits, the sociological ramifications of current world politics, and gummy worms?
Well that's something you're going to have to learn as you go. However if you want credentials, allow me to fill in a bit of my resume.
At 34 I have collected paychecks from over 30 different employers. I have built million dollar homes, I have driven a front end loader through mountains of trash, I've been to basic training and enjoyed some peace time national guard time, I've worked for restaurants, retail chains, and convenient stores and been a substitute teacher. However I have also spent over five years as a guard at a county jail AND 30 days as an inmate at a different county jail. (For CIVIL CONTEMPT-I couldn't afford to pay ALIMONY, and was subsequently put in jail, which caused me to lose my job with the Sheriff's Department)
My education involves an Associates degree, and 90 credits towards a BS in Mental Health and Human services, as well as a healthy interest in reference literature. School and I have never gotten along, I find it too rigid and constraining, I can learn more on my own.
The only things I know for sure...I've been pretty good at just about every job I've ever had. The closest to a job I actually liked was as a guard. I'm a people watcher and psychological dynamics fascinate me, plus I'm an adrenaline junkie and at the time thrived amidst the crazy fights, hangings, cut-ups etc etc. That being said I now have to pursue a different career, and this blog circle is part of it. It's a social and personal experiment. I know that everywhere I've gone, people tend to remember me. However despite being a quick learner, and intelligent and well-spoken, something seems to be holding me back. So I am now hoping to work from that into something here, maybe a job, maybe a career, maybe pocket money, time will tell.
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